Tuesday, October 31, 2023

Boo! Another Halloween costume! 2023 Version of Melody Ellis, American Girl

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Happy Halloween! OMG, tomorrow/today's going to be long if we need to get candy after school and ballet but before too late. Okay, so, this year's theme is Melody Ellis, the 1960s American Doll. Here she is:

Okay, so, now, we got the eyewear  (not shown) just right, missed the colors a bit, and never figured out a purse. But, she will have something to hold.

Front after handpainting coat #45...

We strayed away from the bows (there is ONE at the collar now), and filled in with cheap bling to detract from the uneven application of 4 coats of paint. Next to shoes, looking like a headstone, is an album (not to size).

So, are you ready? Album front visible here. Glasses are spot on. Socks are on point. Shoes patented but not yet blinged. We sorted the hat to look less Carol Burnett and more 60s after the photo: pulled it way down. Still refusing the upflip-do. Should I spray down her hair with water and set it in rollers for the a.m.? Child abuse, you say? I will get an up-ending, you say? Kay.

Fully worn without jewels on shoes. Red, white and blue button worn, but not poppin! Too much going on with this print, but the album cover looks tropical, so she's on theme...

I guess I never got a picture of the dress before I added green. Bonus project underneath, because now I need to paint the back!

Here's the mock-up copy of her brothers' new album. Working out the colors. She is delivering it to Barry himself. They've known each other almost her whole life. (okay, I'm really deviating from the story now).


Back has pointers on messed up coloration on album cover and an address. All in my stroke-afflicted attempt at 1960s handwriting. I think that's a fail. Should the cover be bi- or tri-colored plus black? Add a border or leave edges free? Groove Records obviously a placeholder for an actual label. I think Motown will want the top half, and they've already put them there. Might swap colors there. Too much emphasis on the label.
Bling about 50% visible in this photo. It is now physically impossible to stand far enough back from Tootie Pie indoors to take a complete body shot.

Okay, so do you know how hard it is to find a houndstooth mod dress in shades of turquoise, green and yellow, maybe? Well, I never encountered one, and I live in thrift shoppers utopia. Anyhow, with the button and shades, I probably should have gone with turquoise for the shoes and I could have figured something out better for the hat. Well, that didn't happen and the shoes are popping! IMHO. Good night, and Happy Halloween!


Sunday, October 29, 2023

Surviving a 3020a - There are no Downsides! New to the Teaching Profession? Read This!

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Throughout my years in the school system of New York City, I have listened to the adage that the elders are wise. I listened to them, those older teachers, and of the future they foretold, and I heeded the lessons they shared. If you have been served with 3020a papers and you are flabbergasted: your job is immensely harder. Since I WAS prepared, years in advance, I documented EVERYTHING, and the administration were as much amateurs at lying as at having a clue about teacher effectiveness. There are some helpful tips even if you are just learning of the smear campaign (specifically, the section on "preponderance of evidence"), but the best defense is a long trail of evidence. Never let a verbal agreement go undocumented in writing. Your new best friend is, "per our conversation" and, "Please advise if anything I have documented is incorrect or disputed".

The good news is that most administrations expect a rote process and are taking the path of least resistance. You CAN win if you are willing to put in the work.

Preponderance of Evidence - Your New Full-Time Job

First of all, the 3020-a is a "preponderance of evidence" hearing. I am not a lawyer, and nothing that I post should ever be seen as a replacement for valid legal advice, but, from a layperson's understanding, this means that whoever has the most evidence, wins. So, you need to document everything. My state is a single-party state, meaning it is legal to audio record with only one (as opposed to all) party's knowledge. Obviously, this, again, is not legal advice, but in my case, that information could have been crucial. I asked the administrators' directly if I was being targeted, and that I felt targeted, and countered every argument to no avail, all on tape. Still got 'em, in fact. 

There will be charges brought. Read through them. In my service of 3020a papers, I was referred to as "Jane Doe", without it having established my actual name (like a form letter). Incompetence on the DOE's part is a good omen; already they're showing the lack of attention that you will exploit. Write down everything you remember about each event listed. Think of names of students, paraprofessionals, parents, etc, that could contradict these charges. Specificity matters, but if you can't come up with a name, write down as many clues as possible. For example, I built an offensive case, as a backup, and gathered intel as I received it. Having all potential "witnesses" in one central file helped me piece together dirt. In some cases, the information was as vague as 'Joe, lives in Long Island, talk to Jennifer about him", but as I gathered more information, it became a rolodex of phone numbers and email addresses. This, in my case, has so-far proven to not be germane, but it was therapeutic during the beginning phase when I was still in a state of limbo. Go through old emails, searching for the administrators that are involved. This will remind you of events in the past, as well as provide crucial evidence, as it did me. An administrator had written in her personal log, presented as proof at my hearing, that I was absent for a TIP meeting, but I found an old email where I contacted her on the date in question asking her whereabouts, meaning I was at the meeting but she wasn't. The more educated you become about the case, the better.

I kept my evidence stored on a cloud drive, but I also kept hard copies in a binder for the hearing. Get organized and stay organized. I had kept a harassment log that included links to email communication or photographic evidence. I kept a rebuttal document with each charge, and each point refuted with proof. In many cases, the evidence was the administrator's own words. For example, she would write that "Many questions were low-level and could be answered in only one way", but her evidence was contradictory: "You asked why is the denominator 1" or "Is there another way to do this". Another common problem was vague comments. One of my favorites was "lesson lagged or was rushed", which besides not being helpful, was also pulled from a data bank of possible characteristics of "ineffective", which indicated that she worked from "ineffective" backwards, looking up things to write on my observation reports on the internet. Yes, I googled some of this genius' favorite phrases. She neglected to read the data bank, unfortunately, because if she had, she may have seen the disclaimer that the ideas were not meant as replacement for true, low-inference evidence, but rather as a training tool. It is tricky to implement changes if the problem is not identified! Some of the evidence she used to justify an ineffective rating was used as an example of effective rating on the Danielson rubric. Please re-read that sentence, because I'm sure you need to. I also noted patterns in the assistant principal's comments, and at one point she obviously started from a previously completed observation rather than a blank form, because she forgot to change the lesson's objective. She thought I wouldn't pick up on her alternating identical observation reports with different dates and objectives. We're not dealing with masterminds, here. When asked about it, she lied, and we exploited that to the utmost! She would note that I didn't identify pre-requisites or didn't have high order questions, and I rebutted it with the lesson plan that I sent via email after the observation. It is tiny things like this that collectively will win your case. Remember, they've been half-assing this. They want to tick the boxes and say that they followed protocol. It is your job to point out that they didn't.

The Lawyer - Find Your Team

I think a fallacy held among non-legal population that a lawyer will take care of everything. This is your case, and the lawyer can only use what you bring to the table. You will need to do work. In my case, I kept the names of those elders who had 3020-a charges before me in my rolodex, my lawyershe was able to look up the transcripts and come up with possible strategies. For example, one of my former coworkers argued that the observations were completed by only one administrator, which the hearing officer noted in the decision as a reason for the favorable decision. We used this strategy, too. It will help the lawyer get a feel for who he or she will be dealing with. We discussed our message and how to best present this message. In my case, the message was that I was a decent teacher, not perfect, that tried her best, but couldn't overcome the administration's bias against me. And the important thing was that it was true, and I wholeheartedly believed this. The other obvious pattern that was found in the previous teachers' cases was, of course, they were all experienced (read: well-paid).

If there is a change in your representation, make sure that the new lawyer has read the entire file. As a cautionary tale, this happened to the DOE's case, and the new lawyer didn't verify that the observations included in the charges were ALL of the observations, which they weren't. The DOE did not include certain, more positive, observations, and there must have been a reason, but in the hand-off, there was a lack of communication and the incoming lawyer assumed the charged observations must have included every observation, and the look on his face when we entered the uncharged observations made the process almost bearable. Lawyers can only do so much. You have to make your own luck.

Do not feel as if you must do as if your lawyer is telling you. They can advise, but the ultimate decision about your case should be done by you. If your lawyer is trying to coerce you, make your chapter leader and district representative aware. In my case, I wanted to follow the tact of the state law that requires districts to first have a board or PEP vote on whether to pursue a 3020-a, which NYC decided, "nah", and it's just always been this way. There was a decision in Staten Island by Judge Desmond Green, regarding this 2590 state law. I wanted my lawyer's opinion on this, and rather than face the issue directly, it seemed to me that she was offended that I was asking. I also sought counsel outside of the UFT, from teachers who'd been through the process, speaking with private attorneys and friends I had made who were involved in activism in the union and the like. I have always made it my business to cultivate the acquaintance of rabble-rousers. Perhaps that is why I was singled out, but I have quite a few theories. The good people will only be too willing to help. They are a good sounding board for your ideas. Talk it out as much as you need to with people from various perspectives. Obviously, you need to choose these people wisely. You can use confidants that you know are turncoats to your advantage, as I did, to convey certain information to the administration. If you need devious tricks, ask them for it!

My lawyer also believed in the beginning that I had made a tactical error in allow the administration to video tape a lesson. Every year, I opted for this, and longed for proof that either they were, or I was, crazy. I was pretty adamant that it was a good thing, and it ended up being key in my case. Finally, it wasn't my word versus hers. If you are still in the classroom and still being observed, I would consider (talk with a lawyer) audio taping your instruction, but this is tricky legal territory. Not only did the video(s) debunk the claims on the observation form, but when asked about a specific incident that didn't appear on the tape, my principal again decided to lie, and said that there was a break in the tape and the incident must have occurred during the time where she "turned off the camera", and even, that "you could see I was getting tired [of videotaping]". That came back to haunt the principal and the videographer (the observing supervisor) because if she had indeed gotten tired and stopped videoing and then restarted, the result would have left the second video with the same date stamp as the first, but a slightly later start time. But, this was not the case; the second video had a date some weeks later, and ironically, it was the date that the observation report was written. It was a simple matter of noting that the videos were obviously from the same lesson (everyone was wearing the same thing in both videos), and the reason the date stamp on the second video was different was because she edited the one video she took and took out a portion, and saved the end portion as the second video.  Arcane stuff, but crucial.

Despite our differences, my legal representative and I had a very good working relationship in the end. Understand your lawyer's role, and understand that it is your job and right to make sure they are doing it to your standards.

Strategy - Stay Cool, You Got This

You've decided on the narrative, and you've looked for evidence that supports this narrative. Now, regardless of your strategy, you must look helpful and willing to improve. I had a right to be angry; administration was unfairly targeting me and it made my life a living hell. But, the hearing is not the forum for venom. You are an educator, and that is a career that no one chooses lightly. Showing that person, the one who loves children, is tantamount. Also, the best narrative is one that isn't completely one-sided; my lawyer told me that one. There are always three versions of a story and the arbitrator knows the truth lies in the middle somewhere. If both sides are diametric opposites, it is difficult to see what actually happened, so tell the officer the truth. If some of the charges are based in fact, say so. On such and such day, yeah, I was having an off day or a made a bad judgement call or whatever. In my situation, the few specific, low-inference comments she wrote were factual. I framed the events as rare occurrences that I dealt with and learned from.


In the end, my lawyer convinced me to stay high, and let them wallow down below. I didn't take the offensive as a strategy, as much as I wanted to. I told myself I would do that later if I needed to, if there was a negative decision in the case, and I needed to take it to federal court. My counsel got my administration to contradict each other, but most importantly, she got the observing AP to lash out briefly in anger. It looks very, very, very bad when a person cannot control their hatred and anger. Do not do this. Their lawyer will try to provoke you, so if you feel yourself getting heated, ask your lawyer to take a break. Staying level headed will be your biggest challenge. I was friendly and helpful to the point where I offered copies to opposing counsel in front of the arbitrator. Judges are human, and if they like you, they can't help but side with you. Educators put on shows every day, and your job now relies on this honed acting ability. Don't lose the faith. You got this.




Saturday, October 28, 2023

Easy Tutorial - Starburst Mirrors

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Picture is intentionally framed to show a peek of the beautiful hot pink silk saree I got a Goodwill Outlet (mmmmhhhhmmmm, you heard that right), where you buy BY THE POUND! Due to elaborate beading, it weighed 2 lbs! 

And, I think new to this blog, my Bjorn Winblaad print and matching starburst mirrors!

Yes, again. Starburst mirrors again. This time, they didn't match and many of the mirrors had long since disappeared. But, I might have paid $2 for a bag of 5. Spray paint on hand, tape on hand, tarp on hand, mirrors on hand. 

Tape protects what's left of the mirrors




Total cost: $2! 
Finished product on tarp, off-gassing

Maybe not so much a tutorial as, pictures, and, well, figure it out! Montana Black spray paint in Power Yellow. Mirrors: Michael's, years ago. 1 inch? No tag left. Makes them wonkier. I would have gone for gold, but I haven't had positive experiences with gold spray paint, and I wasn't painting spokes by hand in oil paint. Talk about a high!




Monday, October 23, 2023

Welcome Back, Dear Readers!

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Still living in Queens


Warning: many, long-saved, not posted, blogs are on-deck now. I am mostly home alone during the day, making phone calls (remember those?), getting costumes ready (it IS that time of year), getting to the bottom of the laundry (that trip to Bushwick didn't help in that department), etc. Very interesting stuff!

These posts aren't about costumes or cake. No. They're about the DOE. That might be a problem. Whatever. Buckle up, people. There's a lot of them.

In the meantime, I am looking up bathroom codes on my phone when studio women appear in the middle of your triangle of bathroom would-be enterers. And opens the door with the keypad on the handle. Editing videos of skating and the Nutcracker. Living life.

For those eager students out there, start by looking up the 3020a process. Charlotte Danielson. Michael Bloomberg. I'll stop...

So, be warned. I'll see about adding an unsubscribe button to the homepage.


Friday, October 20, 2023

Who Am I? A Rambling Attempt to Figure Out My Life.

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6/17/14 2:15 PM I had a minor meltdown at work today where I lost control at a student.  Nothing physical, but that sassy - no, rude - child received the full force of my anger.  I had a similar moment immediately after I returned to teaching after my stroke, and the scary thing about that craze was the instigating infraction was trivial compared to the diatribe it provoked.  I chalked that incident up to what, in essence, was my brain injury.  The thing about a stroke is that it changes you; the essence of who you are is your brain, and your brain is not the same after a stroke.  My brother-in-law is a quadripelegic, so physically he is completely different than he was before his spinal injury, but he is still the same person.  I, on the other hand, look the same as I did before my stroke; it is the inside that changed.

So, back to today.  One of my collegues passed away one week ago, and she was a gentle, caring teacher who lived her life following the model of God.  Because she was suffering from stage IV cancer, her honors class that she intended to loop with for a three-year stint was given to me after only a year.  I'm sure this ripped at her heart, and she would come in during my classes with them often.  Even during her chemotherapy, she continued to come to work, because she lived to teach, and loved her job.  Those of you who know me, know I no longer love teaching.  I did, and in theory I still do, but the joy and love of it has long ago left. 

When I attended her service, I listened to the Rabbi and swore I'd model my life after Mrs. S. and show love, love, love, especially to those poor, hurting children I share a building with.  And then, today happened.  Can I use the excuse of my stroke, which is now five years in the past?  Am I grieving my coworkers loss?  Am I just making excuses?  Who am I?  What do I stand for?

Ladies and gentlemen (are there any male readers out there?), is this an e-midlife crisis?  Should I tweet my pre-menopausal angst? 


10/20/23 1:58 PM 
Okay, Update! It is now 9 years later and I had another meltdown and I am now retired. Very much post-menopausal now. My brother-in-law, the quadriplegic, passed away just before the pandemic. Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around every once in a while, you might miss it.



Beautiful Boys According to Me

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Self Indulgent Post Alert!

The impetus of this post is to see if I have a type, but an added benefit is that if I need eye candy, I can come here. I'm in, and I've been, in the market and I have no focus, so let's see if we can find one by looking back on my pop culture icons. Oh, and this was another saved post from way back...Somehow I think it's important to note that. Onwards!

The Western Europeans

Morten Harket
John Taylor
Somehow, sadly, there are no French icons here, but Stephane Lambiel, Swiss, speaks French and, despite the commentary to the contrary, looks very Musketeer or Richard III in his costume. Also, my co-worker Philippe from Los Locos, who looked, according to my French boyfriend at the time, like Jesus. And, ah, the beautiful Norwegian, Morten Harket. One of my flatmates in London, Fumiko, shared a flat with him. I was obsessed. I rocked the black leather straps around the wrist, but never went around the neck like him. And, one of the three famous Taylors, no relation, of Duran Duran. Something about the milk-white translucent skin of John, with the dark eyeliner further obscuring his smolder. So far, I am noticing a chiseled man with dark hair worn long. Could this have to do with the time period, as two of the 3 were in their prime in the 80s? Well, Stephane was at his prime in the mid-2000s, so, there goes that theory. So, so far we have:

  • Chiseled
  • Dark hair
  • Long hair
The All-Americans

Oh, there is something so innocent about these gorgeous Americans. Young, handsome, romantic. Not recognizable as a manly quality today, but, the wide-eyed optimism is infectious. Paul Wylie's routine has much in common with Lambiel's. Hair is medium length and dark.
Robert Sean Leonard
Rob Lowe
Paul Wylie


Non-Olympic Skater Americans

Hmmm...Becks? That Swedish World Cup footballer? Ryan Stiles? Wait, only the last one is American. Hmmmm...









Wednesday, October 18, 2023

Retirement! Art! Murano Glass!

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Hi all! I have been gone quite some time! I did Grand Jury duty here in Queens in February of  2020, and after that, everything is a blur.

Now Tootie Pie is 16 and a junior in high school. We still second-hand shop and I found a Ziploc bag full of Murano glass. Actually, I found 2, but I left the one with just the balls behind and took the one with the flowers! I retired just under three weeks ago from teaching, and I'm getting creative again.

Found canvas from former gym near Tootie Pie's former dance studio.
Gold paint, glitter, iridescent medium...all is off to a great start!
Extended lighter shade of gold up higher. Added blue.

Trying to arrange the glass. Not quite it with the flowers and bursts. Certainly the stems aren't popping against the black. Added green middle.

Green stems on white background?

Glass finding its home now. New York, New York, New York is on fire!

Flower color explosions.

Firework explosions.

Adding in a detail from my niece!

Now adding some origami from Tootie Pie.Green stems obviously stay on green background.
Paint containers temporarily supporting the more vertical structures.

Process in detail, and then a detail. I call it, Find the 14K Cultured Pearl (with tear and misfire). It will go in Tootie Pie's room where the star chart is temporarily.

It is an ode to New York, obviously, but with heirlooms and treasures unearthed in Sarasota and in the bead district and during our still current crystalling phase, and from Rhode Island (I challenge you to find the Avon daisy earring! My first communion cross! I Spy!) and little girls in the Midwest and love. It is also a redoing of the little girl undoing I did to my Nana's lovely shell doodad, a memento of her one tropical vacation, the Bahamas. I picked off every pearl and shell on that thing. I couldn't help it. Guess what I had to physically restrain Tootie Pie from doing when I unveiled this? And most of those pearls were my Nana's...

Almost found its way into the thrift bin (sadly, the thick custom acrylic shelf DID), but then...
I peeled off the circle scale things, painstakingly removed the hot glue, and had to cover up the poorly hidden Corona, Queens based art that was originally, um, flesh-colored...

Made with: thrifted AND reused canvas, white paint and gesso, vinyl tarp, Liquitex iridescent medium, Murano glass, coral, semi precious cut and smoothed gems, faux and one real pearl, barnacles, beads, sequins, origami paper, hand lettered beaded chain, turquoise, Mod Podge, E6000, Aleene's fabric glue, flat back crystal glue, walnut in shell, shells, charms, sterling silver, craft paint, fabric paint, 3D puffy paint, 3D puffy glitter paint, stickers, Testor's oil gold paint, Dutch and Swiss coins, a Euro, pendants, glitter, glitter card stock, tassels, Jelly Belly, Scrabble tiles, ceramic tiles, math manipulatives, plastic, pompoms, nail polish, buttons, plushies, bells, wood, earrings, many custom Golden products from long-ago A.C. Moore's closeout sale, marbles, Angelus leather paint, faux fabric flower, rocks, metal fittings, matching faux peridot earrings from Ann & Hope that didn't go through my sister's digestive system, thank you. 

It feels good to get this out of my system!

 

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